I first started Wardrobe Wednesday outfit posts back in 2013. That’s over 9 years ago, several sizes ago, and many, MANY pounds ago.
Self esteem wise, that was a great time in my life. At least physically speaking. Mentally/emotionally on the other hand…not so much. But I was lowest size I had ever been since the start of puberty. I fit into clothes comfortably, and having my picture taken didn't make me want to disappear into a bush like that Homer Simpson GIF.
I’m actually not going to dive too deep into body positivity on this post. I don’t have it in me to discuss not caring about a number on a scale, or caring about societal norms when it comes women’s bodies…we can talk about that some other time. Today, I just want to address that I miss the freedom that came with feeling comfortable in my skin. That was nice.
As the years passed and the weight packed on and became harder and harder to manage, that freedom left. For a while I even succumbed to not caring about my outfits at all. I think it’s really typical for us to think we shouldn’t shop for this “fat body.” That what we SHOULD be doing is trying to lose weight and then shopping for new cute clothes for our smaller “goal” body instead. Let me tell ya, that mentality is a sure fire way to make a person already uncomfortable in their skin even more uncomfortable. Ya, sure, dressing like a slob is SUPER helpful when you’re looking for a confidence boost! All I was doing was punishing myself.
Fast forward many years, and I feel like I can proudly say I’m in the best place mentally and emotionally I have ever been. I’m confident in who I am as a person, my morals, my belief systems, my relationships…all of that incredibly important stuff. Of course this also coincides with being my heaviest weight and size of my life too. Go figure, you get your mind and emotions all good and your body just has to go the opposite direction just to keep you humble. We just can’t have it all, can we? 😂
But let’s be real, I have the important stuff. I know these other things are way more vital than the size of my pants or the look of my chin in pictures, but that doesn’t mean it isn’t still something to work through. I finally got out of the slob stage a couple years ago. My size 12 body deserves to wear cute outfits just as much as my size 6 body did! Even as my weight continued to go up I’m so happy that I saw the value in dressing myself in a way that made me happy. Especially because I genuinely love putting outfits together (if you don’t that’s ok too!) I got over the first hurdle!
My second hurdle is still MOST DEFINITELY pictures. I hate them. Haaaaaate them. Loathe them entirely. So with this in mind, I decided to attempt bringing Wardobe Wednesday back. I was always telling myself that I would “bring it back when I was comfortable again”….but maybe this is a way for me to get to that comfortable place? Maybe, forcing myself to take pictures in clothes will actually build my confidence again? Who knows! But I’m going to give it a try.
Now, that doesn’t mean I’m going to necissarily go back to having a post every single week like before. It might be a little intermittent. I also reserve the right to take 573,892 pictures to find 3 that I’m ok with posting. Hey…just doing these posts again is putting myself out there. Don’t be thinking I’m snapping 4 pictures quickly and moving on…I’mma be filling that camera roll. 😂
Anyhow, if you’ve read this far you’re a trooper! Now for the actual post and outfit deets:
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This post contains affiliate links BUT per usual, I only link items that I love and have bought myself or genuinely think are awesome!
I set up my tripod outside in my front yard but it was soooo windy! I ended up having to move inside to my office. Not the most interesting background but I was dressed and ready and didn’t want any excuses to not get it done…so inside it was!
Striped Hoodie
This Time and Tru hoodie is great! Being long sleeved it’s just enough to keep you warm when it gets a little chilly, but overall it’s pretty lightweight so it won’t give you heatstroke during the warmer parts of the day. It’s a perfect foundation piece to build off of. Since it’s not overly thick you can easily wear another jacket over it without getting too bulky. I also love the detailing of the high cut on the sides but lower in the back.
Of course this exact sweater is out of stock, but I’m going to link it anyway in case it comes back or you like other colors or similar options.
Denim Jacket
I’ve owned a few denim jackets over the years and this one is by far my favorite! It has stretch to it so you don’t feel restricted. This also lends its self well to wearing it over over sweaters and still being able to move. Ones I’ve had in the past made me feel like Ralphie’s little brother Randy in A Christmas Story. Do you know the scene I’m talking about when he can’t put his arms down in his snow gear? Anyway…none of that with this jacket. It moves with you and extra bonus is it has wonderful inside pockets too!! I wore it to a concert and it held all my stuff without having to bring in a bag. If you’ve been looking for a denim jacket…look no more. This staple piece is a must have!
Sneaker
I got these sneakers at TJ Maxx. The brand is Urban Sport by J Slides , which of course I’ve never heard of and means nothing to me. But they are so cute and comfy! They were great for walking all over San Francisco but still super stylish. I love the rose gold and snakeskin detailing. I found them on HSN , Nordstrom rack, and even Amazon. I got them cheaper at TJ Maxx but since I couldn’t find this exact pair on their site, I linked it on Amazon because it’s cheaper than HSN.
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